Like a Million Shards of Glass has been edited by Ruhaan Shah.
Your words pierce through my heart, throttle my sense of integrity, and crush me from every corner. They make me feel lonely, unwanted, and as though I am a complete misfit. Your words are now like a million shards of glass poking me and taunting me with their snarky smiles.
It is hard for me to fathom that after all we’ve been through, this is how we end up. I’m not even sure if I can say ‘we’ anymore without tears rolling down my cheek like a realisation that we aren’t ‘we’ anymore. Was our friendship all that frail? You compel me to question me, you, and every single moment that we spent together. You take every step to make me feel jealous and insecure, and it agonises me. I guess I’ve become so used to the constant pain that I am emotionally nonchalant.
Even after all that, I try to tell myself that maybe, you aren’t like this and that things will change, that everything happens for a reason. Today, I feel like the events occurring in my life only bring me sadness. Tomorrow, they will make me smile. Maybe, it’s just better to give it time, but how much?
Here’s a piece of advice if you’re going through the same.
Walk away when not given the dignity you deserve. As a result, show those people the finger and say, “Thanks for telling me exactly whom I never want to be with!”
A person who has been there,
Someone who cares,
Finally, someone who knows that it does get better.