In Conversation With Zindagi has been edited by Aashna Kanuga.
Writer’s note: “In Conversation with Zindagi” is a tribute to the theme of ‘Dear Zindagi’. This movie made me realize how ungrateful I have been all this while and not seen the truest beauty of life.
I hope you are doing well. It has been a while since I last wrote to you, hasn’t it? Today, I have a lot to tell you.
First being, why do you always have to put me in difficult situations? Right when I make a difficult choice, you suggest, that the simpler choice is the better one. You flood me with emotions in a tough situation. Why?
I tend blame you when I lose, or when you conspire to fail me. I hate my existence and you, my life, when something upsets me or when I have to choose between things I love. Why always me? Maybe I have so many complaints because I expect a lot from you.
However, today I want to say how grateful I am to you.
You know what? Yesterday, I met my sister. But she was leaving again. When she left, I realized how ungrateful I was to her. How ungrateful I am about everything.
I was so busy complaining about so many things, that I failed to appreciate. I want to say how thankful I am that you made me realize the things I possess are so much more beautiful, so much more special than any materialistic gift I could ever have. Thank you, for making me realize how beautifully and comfortably I live.
Zindagi, I never realized that I have the most amazing friends and family. There was a time when I was stuck at a police station, and my father came to save me, without any questions. It is not easy to develop this level of trust. But if someone can trust me so blindly—even though the situation is not in my favor—maybe I can do it too.
Zindagi, I should have understood this.
You always put me in tough situations. But what I missed was, every time it is you who pulled me out of it. I always learned something from every experience. Today, I want to thank you for every experience you gave me. You gave me the power to understand the emotions and the magic to empathize with them. You taught me how to love with all my heart. Yes, it gave me joy, and it gave me sorrow at the same time. However, all those experiences made me realize the definition of love. It was you who taught me to fight reason with a reason.
Whenever you told me chose between my favorite things, I learned to compromise. Whenever I had to let go of anything, I learned to sacrifice. No one can teach these things better than you. It is because of you, that I can be a good teacher. My students love me for it.
There is a lot to say, but I think words can never justify the gratitude that I want to. I will make sure that one day you will be proud of me and tell your friends how I not only lived up to but surpassed all your expectations.
Before I end this, I want to say one last thing. Never stop teaching me, Zindagi. It feels good to be alive and share the moments that I have lived just because of you. Love you Zindagi.